Domains, Wayward Suns, and what should have been

[sacrilicious13]

I talked to duia today and she told me about this fabulous mall in Austin called The Domain and declared that "they're building a Nordstrom just for you!" and my first impulse was still to yell to Mom in the next room. Nordstrom was kind of our store. We loved shopping there, loved the cafe, loved the whole feel of the place.

Part of me still keeps hoping that I'm going to wake up in my room in Maine and this will all be a bad dream. I just miss her so much.

This might be where Duia and I are living if it's still available in like six weeks. It's lovely and cheap and it has a yard for the puppies. It's pretty much perfect.

Last Friday I got the check for Mom's life insurance. For the first time in my life I held a check for $20,000 in my hand and I wanted to burn it. Instead I cashed it. I'm going to pay off my credit card, save about six grand in case it takes me awhile to get a job, and use the rest as a hefty down payment on my new car.

Next week I'm buying a red Toyotal Yaris Hatchback. Mom and I test drove one over the summer. She was supposed to be there with me when I bought the car.

Someday I want to take Duia to Charlotte and show her the city. I want to walk the streets and imagine the life I was supposed to have. I try to think about before Mom got sick and I feel like I can't remember anything, not really. I feel like all the misery of the last few months just pushed the rest of my life out of my mind. I just really want to wake up.

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[deevious4.livejournal.com]

Wayward suns, haha that's way too perfect. Cute house too ;)

Mind if I give a word of advice? It'd stretch your $ much farther if you buy a used car, like something off a lease, rather than new. People who lease take good care of their cars so they don't get charged extra fees, etc. If you buy new, the car immediately drops in value. Have Yaris been around long enough to get one that way? I don't know when they started making them.

In any case, good luck in your new life, and I really hope things start going in your direction...Goddess knows you deserve it!

*hugs*

[sacrilicious.livejournal.com]

Yarises really have only been around like two years so I haven't ever seen a used one. I'm not worried about paying for a new car because the Yaris is like THE cheapest car you can get, it gets great mileage, and you can keep Toyotas for-freaking-ever. My uncle has a Celica that he's had for like 12 years and it still works fine. Plus I really desperately want a red car. That's the reason I'm getting an 09 instead of a slightly cheaper 08. If I'm paying thousands of dollars for something, it's going to be what I want. Not white. White is not a color!

Isn't that house the cutest? Duia was going to go stalk it sometime and see if it looks as nice in person as on the picture.