Reason 543256348969823 why Duia is wonderful

[sacrilicious13]

Duia went back to Texas yesterday. Am very saddened because my house is lacking in distracting hilarity.

As I was crawling into bed last night, I heard this odd crinkling noise. I turned on the light, and Duia has left this between my sheets.



I really don't know how I would have managed the last two weeks without her. When other so-called friends decided that friendship didn't matter anymore because they got married, she was there. When she said goodbye to Mum yesterday she said, "Don't worry, Mama, I'll take care of her."

Mum was in a lot of pain today. She barely recognizes my grandparents, but if I say her name sometimes she answers me with, "What sweetie?" I just hate seeing her in such constant pain. I've told the doctors to give her as much pain medicine as they need to. I just want her to stop suffering.

She's so thin that I hardly even recognize her except for her eyes. I just can't believe that less than two months ago she was driving her car, and now she can't even talk.

Duia tells me I'll be fine, and I know one day I will, but right now every breath hurts. I just want my Mom to open her eyes and tell me that everything's going to be okay and that this was all a bad dream.

I just want to wake up.

Comments

[torificus.livejournal.com]

It won't be easy, and it will get worse before it gets better, but you will be okay. I am glad you have, and will continue to have a Duia to rely on. She is good that way.

I wish there was something I could do to fix it.

[sacrilicious.livejournal.com]

Know the location of any crossroads and/or Yellow Eyed Demons? Seriously not joking.

I know that I'll survive this. Drinking myself into a coma or driving off a bridge isn't an option because Mum wouldn't want that for me. I have no doubt in my mind that my Mom loved me more than anything in the world, so I have to survive for her. She would want me to try to be happy. I just can't imagine not having her there to share my happiness with.

[duia.livejournal.com]

:[ I wish there was more I could do for you.

[elle-dritch.livejournal.com]

Hi. I haven't commented before on what you and your mother are going through, because I didn't know what to say that would be any kind of comfort, but I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of both of you. I know it probably doesn't mean much, but I am in awe of your strength and bravery.

[deevious4.livejournal.com]

Duia's right. It might take a while, but you will be fine. You are a strong person, I've seen it before--you'll survive, no matter the hurt.

Don't forget to take care of yourself.

<3

[oaktree89.livejournal.com]

One day it will be easier. Until then, just keep going one moment at a time.
I wish there was more I could say, or do...

[marishna.livejournal.com]

Arch, I've been reading all your posts but haven't been commenting because I just don't know what to say. Everything I can come up with just seems so trite. So just know I'm here. And if, somehow, there is anything I can do for you, please don't hesitate. I wish there was more I could do.